What about love?
What about pain?
What have you done?
‘Cos I’m not the same.
If it’s not me,
If it’s not you,
Then who takes the blame
For all this pain???
It could be the world,
It could be my friends.
But all I can say,
Is, my life will end …
Suffering builds up inside,
The world looks black from my eyes,
The numbing starts, when I fall apart.
Being ignored is such a crime,
I feel alone all of the time.
This pain of living hurts inside,
It’s getting so hard for me to hide.
There’s a time for living,
There’s a time for death,
How can you live without your breath?
Suicidal is all I feel,
To end this suffering that is so unreal.
Why did god put me on this earth?
Have I not suffered enough?
To be his joke, for him to laugh,
When all the time I screw things up.
Why god? Why?
If living gives me depression,
Then why do you keep me alive ?
Have I not suffered enough?
I am nobody, I am nothing,
I am the one everyone laughs at.
And I still don’t understand,
Why I am here?
Life is not worth living
When you’re a clown like me.
I am useless, a disappointment.
God can ‘t you see?
Life is a chore, full of fear,
I just want it all to end.
And my life to disappear.
©2012 S. Dodds